October 22nd we learned that both our twins looked "so far so good" and neither had anencephaly. The day after though, I received a terrible call that the pneumonia my mom had was getting worse. I felt so bad for her that she had been sick for weeks and now was in the hospital because she just wasnt getting better. I hadnt even been able to talk to her on the phone for a couple weeks because she would cough so badly if she tried to talk. Shortly after finding out she was in the hospital I got a call at work from my brother, who was hysterical. He told me my mom had leukemia. I felt like I was going to faint. After that my husband called to tell me my dad had called, and I explained to him why. Then I called my dad back and told him we were going to come, now. I just had to tell my boss I was leaving. I got in my car and drove home. When I parked at my house a dragonfly flew over head, over my house and down the back. I walked inside and started to cry. I was so worried about my mom and what was going to happen. My husband was there waiting, with our bags already packed! Somehow though that dragonfly comforted me, I knew it was Emery telling me it was going to be ok.
Well the past few months my mom has been through a roller coaster. She had to fight off her pneumonia and then they started her on chemo. Thankfully that first round of chemo helped and she is officially in remission! Tonight though she is finishing up some more chemo just to keep her in remission as she awaits a bone marrow transplant, which should probably happen the end of January. We continue to pray for her every day as she fights hard to get better and stay better!
Then after all that we have some more news about the twins. No they haven't suddenly turned into triplets :) We have finally made it to our 20 week ultrasound. I was so terrified in the weeks and days leading up to the appointment, actually the morning of my appointment I woke up at 2:30 and was unable to go back to sleep, even for 5 minutes. I had even crazy irrational fears, like what if they suddenly had anencephaly (like that makes sense!) Plus 20 weeks is when they can tell you if there are any other types of birth defects, anything from spina bifeda, to a heart defect, to bones, to a cleft lip. I was petrified, after going through the ultrasound diagnosis with Emery I just had such a big fear. Well I made it through the 2 hour appointment. It took longer then normal because 1 baby would block another baby and it took longer to get the pictures they needed. BUT both babies look absolutely how they should! I can not be more thankful, I am sure Emery was looking out for his 2 little baby sisters. We are just a few months away from welcoming 2 new baby girls into our family and we feel so blessed.
It has been weird some days finding a way to relax about the babies, and to not feel to guilty for being excited. Some days it is also hard for me to really believe that a baby will be coming home with us, and not just one but 2! After losing a baby it is certainly a hard fear to let go of, but feeling these little girls move sure keeps me smiling! We have been stocking up as we find good deals on things as we will be needing double and I don't hardly have anything left from when our daughter was a baby! For the next few months, and hopefully at least 14 more weeks we will keep praying as these beautiful babies keep growing, and hope that they stay put until its safe enough for them to come out. I am guessing/hoping for April sometime. I will keep trying to update as we go through this journey and Emery becomes a big brother, and guardian angel to now 3 sisters.
